My First Contact Lense

Kinda scary huh...

04 December 2007... My FIRST PAIR OF CONTACT LENSE! Black Contact Lense that ENLARGE THE FREAKING EYEBALL!! (Well it was supposed to...) Which also therefore make me officially broke till I get myself a job unless money drop from the sky...

Today I poked the contact lense in for the first time~! Although I think I might have took an hour... -.- And make loads of irritating noise... -.-

Everyone should know how freaking scared I am with eyeballs...

I cannot stand people touching their eyeball in front of me...
I never even open my eyes when putting eyedrops...
I rather sit roller coaster 20 times straight...
I rather step myself with a knife a hundred times...
I rather get myself sunburnt...
My eyeball phobia may actually exceed my camera phobia, sunlight phobia, whatever phobia I have...

Well you should get it by now... I AM FREAKING SCARED!

Why did I even buy and try it since I am so scared?

ALL FOR LOLITA AGAIN... I do almost everything for it... This time... I want to have to bloody cute gothic doll look... (Like the pic above) And eyes plays an important role... So I did it... Not for daily wear coz I dun wear specs... I am not wearing it daily? Only for Lolita...

Which unfortunately was not really what I expected when I put it on... Which make me realise that I am really a human... NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I want that doll eyes~ I want lesser of the whites and more of the black...

Okay maybe it is not that bad... I use this black one for practice... It does make it bigger 0.01cm? My eyeball also more shiny... I am so TEMPTED to buy the whole set of contact for like $35 one... Every month can change eye colour... Next time when I got money!

Well I haven overcome my fear for it yet despite having to poke it in a few times... POKING IN is not that bad... IS THE PINCHING OUT... I couldnt get it out... I was so scared I nearly cried when trying at home... Did I? Well I almost wanted to... -.-

Since I can do this already... I can do almost everything! Let go for bungee jumping!

Damn I actually blogged so much... Have got to do my stuff... Tsk... Share next time~ (If I remember)

Oh before I forget... Thank you Tina~ =D You helped me TONS!

Now that I got my contacts... I am left with a few more stuff which I have to make and get... But I got a big problem here... My weight problem... Which I might actually have to give up my beloved lolita because of it... Lolita to me is so sacred I really dun want to ruin it in my hands...

If I still cant cant down my weigh even by a little... I think I will go into another full bloom depression because I lose something I like... Which will make me suicidal... And will make me die as a very unhappy person... Coz I cant even die in my beloved lolita...

I HATE MY BODY...