I think I think I might have just Graduated?

Note: I apologize for the tiny scans... Dun know how to use thumbnails and am to lazy to edit...

To be truthful I have been wondering whether to post this as it might somehow reflect on my age which is not SOMETHING I WANT...

The letter that by chance came safely to my hands from Kira... =P

I think I might have somehow graduated... I dun really know whether to call it a miracle or not... Although somehow I have been saying that I am sure to fail all the way through my poly years... But somehow I managed to BORDERLINE PASSED my subjects... (When I say borderline I really do mean it)

Of course I really did study in fact more hardworking as compared to the past I think... But somehow this 3 years tell me that I seriously cannot make it... I dun hate the subject I am studying although everyone KEEP ASSUMING... I dun have much feelings for it though... Well I dun want to further crap or this will never end...

Then the invitation card... Actually they dun have to give this to me... Coz no one will go anyway... Is not as if I passed with BEAUTIFUL AND PROUD COLOURFUL scores... Borderline passes remember?

Plus my father is busy and my mother is not really bothered with such things... In fact this is what she said:

"If it is a uni graduation then I go"

How wonderfully honest! LOL! In fact she din even go for my elder sister's uni graduation ceremony~ This is what she said though~ (-.-)

Well actually is not only they dun wanna go... I dun wanna go too... I am not really bothered with such things...

FIRSTLY

Have to wear formal... Looks at wardrobe... I dun have a single formal whatever thing it is... No shoes... No shirt... No Pants... Buy? No money...

Then have to pay for graduation suit or whatever it is... $38... $30 deposit... $8 for rental...

Should I remind you that I am UTTERLY broke right now? My pay next month is already fully booked for stuff... -.-

Lets compare the pros and cons...

Pros:

1. The only reason I dun mind going that day is because I like my darling st and honeycake...
2. Honey cake promise to call me darling if I go...
3. Maybe see the school 1 last time? & Take pics of it?

Cons:

1. I never intend to go in the first place
2. I am broke thus no money to pay for my suit =P
3. It is like so early in the morning... 9AM!! Travel 2 hours... Travel back 2 hours... -.-
4. Very troublesome...
5. My results are like shit?
6. I dun have any achievements?
   
7. Have to buy formal wear... No money =P
8. I dun wanna go on stage?
   
9. I dun really think I wanna meet anyone else besides my 2 darlings..
10. Need to take pictures? Not interested...
11. High probability of people asking me a whole lot of crap...
12. I wun be able to talk to my darlings much anyway since their family are going...
13. IT IS BORING...
14. I AM NOT INTERESTED?
15. I rather slack in office?
16. I am not at all motivated to go...
17. I am fat...
18. I am ugly...
19. I am stupid...
20. I rather go to Despairs Ray Live...
21. Etc etc

Well you get what I mean I am more of 80% dun wanna go...

Sian... Although I am supposingly supposed to go collect the suit in this period that is IF I GO... I am not sure about it... What if I rent and dun go? Waste of transportation time and money since I have to go back and return...

Next week then decide... Maybe if SOME of my ONLINE shopping items ARRIVE by this week... And IF my haircut isnt too bad... AND IF I lose some weight... AND IF I GOT MONEY SOMEHOW... AND IF I AM in a GOOD MOOD SOMEHOW...

Maybe the probability of me going will raise to 50%~ Ah how wonderful~ (-.-)

Shall not crap further... I promised myself to adjust to a normal healthy human lifestyle for 2 weeks... I HAVE TO SLEEP NOW... My Lolita Youth Sleep IS IMPORTANT~! Will crap here next time~!