I want to sleep too... *KICKS KIRA*

Actually I got alot to blog

But am too busy and tired.

Also I have been typing out too much crap these days.

Ah well the cute picture of Kira shall make up for it all...

I am seriously thinking of changing my blog address coz I dun like the current.

When I thought I am recovering a little from my horrifying sprain yesterday.

I sneezed so hard and sprained it again.

Double the pain

And I couldnt get up from the chair...

I shall crawl to the bed and remain there for the next few days probably.

Bye

My Buys on 25/10/2008

I spent so much this week...
Truth is I am so broke...
Stuff that I bought on Saturday ALONE...

There is a discount at Kino which I have been WAITING FOR SO LONG!
I bought the dictionaries (which I am not satisfied with)
4 Lolita Magazines! *Cough* Expensive okay?
The books alone costs me around $150+++
And some other shit...


But my younger sister gave me $50 for the books as my belated birthday present~
Thank you!

And I saved $10 with the Kinokuniya Gift Voucher
I got it from my Japanese Speech Contest Third Place earlier this year~ =D
I should totally post my speech someday! =P

How appropriate... My speech was about the Lolita fashion and the books I bought are my Lolita darlings and jap dictionary~

=P

I spent so much to fill in my pathetic emptiness...

The Sad Life of a Cockroach

Number 5 I see in a week...

There are so many in the office...
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Have been very unstable...
Have nothing much to look forward in life anymore...
Dun know what to expect in the future...
Sucked in expressing in any human ways...
Is it really okay to live like this?
Any painless/beautiful way to end it?

The Walk to my Lesson

Taken on my Half an Hour Walk to Lesson

Due to some last min problems as work and stuff ending up late...

Psychic Chan told me that day it is better not to take the bus...

Hence I took the 1/2 hour walk to my lesson for the first time..

Good thing it was quite cooling that day...

Indeed when the bus passed by me, I was halfway there and the bus was so crowded it didnt stop... *Phew*

But still I dun think I will do that often coz I sweated like mad for the next 15 mins in lesson...

( - _ - )

My BAD BAD Stomach

For my bad stomach...

Like finally I see the doctor after 3 weeks...

Actually I think I am more sick mentally...

I am exhausted...

How Cute

From "Over Walking" in new shoes a few weeks ago...

My feet hurts in any shoes... Including sports shoes...

How unlolita-ish to post such picture

Haha

Taste of Chaos: International

Note: You may click on the pictures to go to the websites...

I was so EXCITED INITIALLY when I saw this thread!

They are coming to Singapore like seriously?!

If you are wondering why did I even get excited in the first place since it is not a jrock event or something like that...

IT BECAUSE as a D'espairs Ray MANIA (Despairs Ray's fan = Mania)

I REMEMBERED READING THIS!

My heart skipped a beat or two when I recalled that so I quickly check it out!

Only to find out that these are the bands who are performing:

• Atreyu
• As I Lay Dying
• Story Of The Year
• MUCC

ONLY 4 BANDS? LIKE WHAT THE HELL?

Wheres D'espairsRay!! WHERE?!

Plus I only heard of MUCC... Since they are a jap and vk band...

BUT I AM NOT FAMILIAR WITH THEM?! *ROARS*

What most frustrating is...
See the North America Tour band lineup:

The International Tour is only half the number?

Not cheap also? At least $98 if buy early...

You may check out for more details at this link:
http://sgcafe.com/showpost.php?p=4535318&postcount=1

If you are interested please do tell me, it will increase my chances of going

I am actually half half... I only want to support MUCC... Since they are a jap vk band...

BUT! I haven really tried them out yet...

Also I am not very good with this standing in the crowd thing...

I dun even scream in roller coasters... ( - _ - )

*BIG SIGH*

I hate the organizers or anything that decides not to include D'espairs Ray in the International Tour!

I guess I will try out the other bands and see if I like them...

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Then again I should look on the bright side!

If D'espairsRay really do come... & I actually do attend their concert...

I will be so emotional when they are 1km within my radar...

I will break down and cry...

Please imagine... I feel as if my soul is taken away just by listening...

I might just faint and die when I am in their live...

Or maybe if I really just kill myself after their live since my wish is fulfilled?
Oh wait, I forgot I wanna go japan/harajuku at least once too...
And buy at least 1 branded lolita dress...
( > . < )

There is a saying When you cant reach the grapes, you will say that the grapes are sour.

Note: You can basically see how depressed & frustrated in this post for I actually took the effort to underline and upload all these shit... Haha...

I am very sorry about the previous complaining and bad-mouthing entry...
I know it is very bad for my "lolita-way"... Lolita sama forgive me!
Even though I still refuse to delete it? =P

Something I did years ago...

It was initially thrown aside by my sister when it was 1/4 done so I picked it up and finish it?
And am proud of it actually! ( > _ < )

However it is falling apart recently...
Taking up space & collecting dust...
Mother decided to throw it away...
Hence one more picture!


Ah... Rest in peace... I am really proud of you!

Superband 2008

Sorry I din want to rant/complain/crap too much in my blog but I cant help it...

One of the very few programs I actually catch...

Superband 2008 that is
(Click on pic below to visit webby)


Unfortunately this time round is rather... Below average...

Yup I watched the previous season's one too!
& Support Lucify?

Of course I will support those with the most makeup x more visual especially the jap style~

I am a very SHALLOW person I know

As for this season I support
Ethe'Real

I think they are better in jap songs but they dun have a choice

I am INDEED A SHALLOW PERSON! ( > . < ) || However what I really upset about is... The band called
SanYue...

I really dun wanna criticize too much but...
The vocals sucked to the core...

What sucked even more is that...
The JUDGES LOVE THEM...

I just cant agree with the judges most of the time...
They dun compliment and give good marks to the bands who improve

But praise this sort of shit

They even got the best band for the semi finals by the judges...

What is this world coming to..
Bribing?
LOL!

Really I dun have anything too much against them...

I am just upset with the standard...

It was so bad my sister and I decided to call and vote for Ethe'Real because we dun want Sanyue to be in...

We dun normally waste money on such "SHALLOW" things since money is difficult to earn...

Good thing?

Ethe'Real is in!

Bad thing?

*Insert Booing Sound* San Yue is in too! *Throws Eggshell*

Oh well next round is the finals and it will be over

So nows a question, how many things did I say shallow?

The Can Drink

Something cute my younger sister left on my table on Monday~



Hahaha~

So cute~ Thanks!

Wanted to post yesterday and brought my camera cable...

Then I realized I forgot to charge my camera...

(-.-)|||

My Extreme Stomach

Monday - Diarrhoea

Tuesday - Constipation

(-.-)|||

My Stomach = Extreme...

Just like my mood swing...

Many things to post but am lazy... Probably during work tomorrow~

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It was a Sunday... Exactly one year ago at this time, I was talking to you and busy rushing my Final Year Project...

I am so sorry I did not manage to listen or help you...

The Sounds of the Creepy Bells

When I am about to sleep at 2am, lying comfortably on my bed...

FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I SLEEP AT 9PM...
Thank god I decided to do something tonight which made me sleep late...

I suddenly heard bells ringing softly... (Everybody is asleep)

It is those creepy ringing by the way... According to me, it means something is passing by... *Cough*

NORMALLY I dun really bother...

For this time though... Immediately I jumped out of bed and went down to check on grandma... I am so bloody worried about her these days I admit I have been peeping on her every night... (-.-)

And I saw her fell down AGAIN cold in the room...

Oh god... I am freaked out big time... But no serious injuries this time I think...

If I did not go down, she might be there in the cold till morning... Who knows what might happen to her health...

If I did not go down, I will definitely curse myself for life for not going down in the night...
Like how I did not even detect it's my wednesday who will leave me..

I AM TOTALLY GRATEFUL FOR HER BEING SAFE!

THANK YOU PSYCHIC-CHAN FOR INFORMING ME!
(Psychic chan have left me like quite a few years already... It only randomly comes back once in a while)

THANK YOU FOR NOT BEING LAZY!

I totally appreciate it!!

Lemon or Orange?

Oh how unfortunate... I am still alive... I think? Vanished quite some time coz I was upset and depressed with lots of things... Oh well...

Anyway... Back to Normal post...

Make a guess!

Is this a Lemon or Orange!

Guess Correctly?!

IT

IS

AN

.
.
.

ORANGE!!

Is it just me but why does it look like a lemon... -.- I shall call it the Mutated Orange-Lemon~

Mother prepared Breakfast for me to bring to office~ =) RABU RABU MOTHER LOADS~

Talking about why I neglected from this place for quite some time... Some major reasons...

REASON 1:
I am really upset with the pictures I take coz it simply just suck to the core... I just cant potray the beauty of the things I take... And everybody just takes totally nice pictures... So I sort of gave up on it...

But I will continue to take pictures just to record things in my life...

REASON 2:
I am really depressed with happening around me...

REASON 3:
I am really upset with myself...

REASON 4:
I am BUSY / LAZY...

Oh well just low on my sinewave...

But I probably will post very often from now on...

Coz I realized I couldnt remember anything... Be it painful or beautiful memories/feelings...

Cosfest 2008

Event: Cosfest 2008
Date: 5th and 6th July 2008
Venue: Downtown East
Webbie Link: http://www.cosfest.com/
Fees: FREEEEE!

One the the major cosplay events in Singapore~~ =D Good thing I am back in time for this event~ PHEW!

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Got tons of pictures to post but cant find the time to do that yet... Sadly... Then cosfest will most probably pile up more pictures for me to owe... BADDDDDDD!

25 June 2008 - Car Accident

Talking about bad luck where ever I go...

Car Accident this morning when my father brought me to work...

It is my first time and HOPEFULLY THE LAST experiencing such things...

The impact reminds me of Bumper Car...

First time that came up on my mind...

SHIT!
(How unlolita-ish)

But THANK GOD no one is hurt in this accident... Okay we should really be thankful!

The first car and father's car got a few scratches... Not too serious... Father might have to pay for the car...

But the most poor thing is the last car... The whole of the front is bended... Worse thing? I think he have to pay around $2000++++++ for his own car damage... Think he have to pay our car damage also... But ours is really nothing compared to his...

The first car owner is really very calm when dealing with this... Did not talk much just keep writing down things...

I wanted to write down the car plates and take pictures (for proof) but I couldnt come out coz my side cant get out... Thankfully I took my CHARGED camera along... My father's hp camera isnt working...

Whole thing ended peacefully... Phew...

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After Accident Reflections:

My father refuse to get me a small car/motor if I am to have one
(which might never happen coz I never even take the time to learn driving and now driving is SO EXP...)

Reason: Very dangerous if to get into an accident... The whole car might be smashed?

WHY!!! At least let me get something I like right?

Nvm... Cannot get small car... I shall ask my father to get me a

LORRY OR VAN INSTEAD!

The back of the van I can decorate Lolita Style~ =D Put Laces & Spray some cool colours on it!

My Trip to Penang Day 1 - 31 May 2008 (Part 1)

I will be away from 31 May 2008 - 3 June 2008. (Which is today)

I wun be able to check my email, msn, websites & receive sms (Hp no battery)...

I will be hiking in the jungles to seek inner peace as I am recently overstressed with my work...

Maybe swim with the kois and eat them for dinner~

Climb up steps so that I can reach the peak of the mountain & mediate!

Oh do I see shops at the background? =P

That was what I PLANNED to say~

HOWEVER!

HOORAY! INTERNET ACCESS in the JUNGLE??!! FREE~!? =P

Okay so actually I am not hiking in the jungles as you can see... I am currently in Malaysia Penang for just a short trip~

I wun exactly call it a vacation as I am actually still working a little here...

A little sad... I have been working like mad the past week... I did not sleep enough for the whole of last week... And had extreme lack of sleep the past 3 days... Thursday I did not sleep at all due to work... Friday was busy so had 2 hours...

Thought I had vacation but end up working in the hotel... -.-

The BIG QUOTATION (19 PAGES LONG...)

The company have been asking to modify for

7 TIMES...

They better let us work that project... Or I will seriously go mad... All my efforts go wasted... Curse & Swear maybe too? Too bad they dun pay us for quoting...

Well well... I had a sleep in the hotel just now and did not do alot of travelling... My parents pity me so they let me sleep~ Hehe~

But though I think I miss out lots of things! What most important when you come here is?

FOOD!!

I had dumpling soup just now~


Their Prawn Noodle Rocks Big Time too!!


This place is FOOD HEAVEN! Dieting only when I go back!

Yup that is all for today~

I apologise for not posting the graduation and cosplay event pictures first as I was busy the whole of last week... Then I dun quite wanna drag this too...

I will pay back by installments! Next week when I am a little more free with my work? I HOPE!

Will post soon! The hotel ROCKS!

Streetfest 2008 is over~

I can start eating normally again~

Did not take pictures for the event though... A little sad... (T.T)

The FEW pathetic pictures by me will be posted very soon~ Will get pictures from Siti~ And maybe provide some links from some really good photographers who went to the event~

Not today coz I came home late and am extremely exhausted... Plus I have got work early in the morning tomorrow...

Maybe one picture today as an apology for my rather long absence and lack of pictures for recent entries~ =)

Modified a little~ Photobucket have got some cool features and I sort of tried it out~

Thought it is a miracle to post such pictures? I will only do such things for Lolita... Haha!~

Damn the person is so fat and ugly... Tsk tsk tsk... But the dog is so cute~ A hard picture to take...

Will be back soon~

Countdown: 3 More Days to Streetfest...

I will be busy for around a week or so... Hence shall update... No pic coz I am busy...

Countdown: 3 More Days to Streetfest...

I had a haircut + dyed + Highlight my hair... MY VIRGIN HAIR IS DAMAGED... (-.-) Big bomb of $250... My pay... IS GONE WITH THE WIND... Touch my hair you DIE... I kinda regret highlighting... Oh well... Done is done... Lesson learnt... Wun be doing highlighting anytime soon... Unless it is pink... =P

My Younger Sister HATES it... My Mother likes it... (Weird huh) I am half half with it...

I think I can figure out why my mother likes it~ Coz I always tell her that I LOVE those EXTREMELY LIGHT/BLONDE/BLEACH/SLIVER/YELLOW/LIGHT BROWN sort of colour...

HOWEVER... The hairstylist said that yellow colour will make my face tone even YELLOWER... Not my intention... Hence I just leave up to the hairdresser~

My mother is extremely scared that I will do it... So yar.. It is not that light hence she is happy!

Apart from hair... I got lots of work to do... Like a whole stack... But I think I will be able to stabilize my work hours a LITTLE more... THINK... & HOPE...

And then comes to the Lolita preparation... I feel more than average fat today even though the intake is lesser... Bad...

The weather is like from bad to worse... I sweat even at home... BAD...

My preparation is no where near done... WORSE OF ALL...

My Contact Lens & Stockings IS NOT ARRIVING IN TIME... MY ONLINE STUFF ARE ALL PENDING AND NOT ARRIVING... BBBBBBAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDD...

But good thing I bought spare contact lens... HOHOHOHO~!

My socks not sewn... My pannier not mended... Kuma chan NOT DESIGNED WELL...

I cant figure out the makeup...

I am having difficulties with hairstyle too COZ I couldnt get it right... zzzZZzzz... I just had a haircut... I should have bought a wig... Will buy a wig when finances allow...

Transportation is worrying me too coz walking down the rough road is bad... Waiting under Hot weather IS BAD... Taxi IS TOO EXP... MRT also have to take bus first... And WALK A LONG WAY...

But as a Lolita... Taxi is the best choice... Should always remain demure... Image cannot be spoilt but melting makeup... And squeezing with people...

From here... You can see how bad it is... I might afterall not wear Lolita since I am still fat... Fated... I had a rather serious back relapse 2 and a half weeks ago... And wasnt able to do exercises... Like hell...

My schedule is shitted up also... Coz I got like piles of things awaiting me...

Haha... Die... Plus I am totally broke... With birthdays and stuff... I am still wondering if I survive the next 3 months in peace... I am not sure if I can afford the graduation suit, the taxi fee, certain payments, and happy shopping & eating as a Lolita?

Bad things aside...

On the side note, it seems like there will be a 4 day cosplay event at Chinatown...
(I personally dun quite think that highly of it since it is rather last min and rather unknown...)

I think most probably IF I am free I might just go for a day or something... On the way to get some cloth~ =P

If there is a chance that everything goes on well... & I wear Lolita that day!!

PLEASE
DO
NOT
TALK
TO
ME!

I WILL IGNORE YOU~!

Coz I dun wanna spoil the Lolita image... My Language isnt too good and I cant speak ancient and polite english... Plus my voice isnt the best on the ears in the world...

OMG THIS REMINDS ME...

If I wear Lolita... I WILL HAVE DIFFICULTY TAKING PICTURES?! MY OTHER HOBBY IS TAKING PICTURES OF COSPLAYERS & OTHER LOLITAS!

DAMN IT WHEN HOBBY & HOBBY CLASH...

I will think of a way!

THE END...

I think I think I might have just Graduated?

Note: I apologize for the tiny scans... Dun know how to use thumbnails and am to lazy to edit...

To be truthful I have been wondering whether to post this as it might somehow reflect on my age which is not SOMETHING I WANT...

The letter that by chance came safely to my hands from Kira... =P

I think I might have somehow graduated... I dun really know whether to call it a miracle or not... Although somehow I have been saying that I am sure to fail all the way through my poly years... But somehow I managed to BORDERLINE PASSED my subjects... (When I say borderline I really do mean it)

Of course I really did study in fact more hardworking as compared to the past I think... But somehow this 3 years tell me that I seriously cannot make it... I dun hate the subject I am studying although everyone KEEP ASSUMING... I dun have much feelings for it though... Well I dun want to further crap or this will never end...

Then the invitation card... Actually they dun have to give this to me... Coz no one will go anyway... Is not as if I passed with BEAUTIFUL AND PROUD COLOURFUL scores... Borderline passes remember?

Plus my father is busy and my mother is not really bothered with such things... In fact this is what she said:

"If it is a uni graduation then I go"

How wonderfully honest! LOL! In fact she din even go for my elder sister's uni graduation ceremony~ This is what she said though~ (-.-)

Well actually is not only they dun wanna go... I dun wanna go too... I am not really bothered with such things...

FIRSTLY

Have to wear formal... Looks at wardrobe... I dun have a single formal whatever thing it is... No shoes... No shirt... No Pants... Buy? No money...

Then have to pay for graduation suit or whatever it is... $38... $30 deposit... $8 for rental...

Should I remind you that I am UTTERLY broke right now? My pay next month is already fully booked for stuff... -.-

Lets compare the pros and cons...

Pros:

1. The only reason I dun mind going that day is because I like my darling st and honeycake...
2. Honey cake promise to call me darling if I go...
3. Maybe see the school 1 last time? & Take pics of it?

Cons:

1. I never intend to go in the first place
2. I am broke thus no money to pay for my suit =P
3. It is like so early in the morning... 9AM!! Travel 2 hours... Travel back 2 hours... -.-
4. Very troublesome...
5. My results are like shit?
6. I dun have any achievements?
   
7. Have to buy formal wear... No money =P
8. I dun wanna go on stage?
   
9. I dun really think I wanna meet anyone else besides my 2 darlings..
10. Need to take pictures? Not interested...
11. High probability of people asking me a whole lot of crap...
12. I wun be able to talk to my darlings much anyway since their family are going...
13. IT IS BORING...
14. I AM NOT INTERESTED?
15. I rather slack in office?
16. I am not at all motivated to go...
17. I am fat...
18. I am ugly...
19. I am stupid...
20. I rather go to Despairs Ray Live...
21. Etc etc

Well you get what I mean I am more of 80% dun wanna go...

Sian... Although I am supposingly supposed to go collect the suit in this period that is IF I GO... I am not sure about it... What if I rent and dun go? Waste of transportation time and money since I have to go back and return...

Next week then decide... Maybe if SOME of my ONLINE shopping items ARRIVE by this week... And IF my haircut isnt too bad... AND IF I lose some weight... AND IF I GOT MONEY SOMEHOW... AND IF I AM in a GOOD MOOD SOMEHOW...

Maybe the probability of me going will raise to 50%~ Ah how wonderful~ (-.-)

Shall not crap further... I promised myself to adjust to a normal healthy human lifestyle for 2 weeks... I HAVE TO SLEEP NOW... My Lolita Youth Sleep IS IMPORTANT~! Will crap here next time~!