Family of Injured Soldiers

This morning when I came down I heard this really weird & loud sound and my mother even asked me what it is. I shall describe it as robot-ish? pumping? stuck?
If it is to come out from a human. It is really a very very terrifying sound. It have been programmed it my brain ever since.

But we dismissed it quickly.

After that when I was about to go upstairs I just stood outside my grandmother's room.

I went closer to my GM and found her sitting on the wheelchair not moving. Her hands are cold. She was drooling on one side and the sound we heard earlier was from her. She just did not respond no matter how I called her. That was when I realized that something is wrong.

I called my mother but she came and thought that gm was just asleep. But after a few sec she realized it too.

I was scared shit that logic was once again taken away from me. For a moment I really thought it was over. I din even dare to check her breathing. But then again I am quite sure she is breathing if not how do we even hear something. Apparently I was in shock I forgot the breathing stopped for a moment.

Thank god for Mary who told us to press on some specific points hard
(around the area between the junction of the thumb & forefinger?)

Though I must say that all of us must have thought that it is not working and decided for the ambulance.

After like 1 min or 2 of intense pressing & shouting? (Lol)
Kira chan was also barking away so I suppose he was trying to help by calling gm back? (-_-)

I saw her eyelid moving a little. That is probably one of best moments of relief.

Well gm is at the hospital now and I am not able to go coz the ambulance can onli take one person. Rah.

Have got lots thoughts about this. Maybe next time. At least she is back.
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Part 2 - the gang with bad backs

First it was me.
Then my younger sister.
Now my father.

My father is currently unable to walk or sit because of his nerves and back.

It is that bad and the injection did not even help abit.

Because of the amount of responsibilities he have, it made it worst.

When I was shouting for my gm, he was so upset because he couldnt get down.

We are all hoping that it is just a normal sprain that will heal soon.

The whole family seems to keep having problems with the back and leg.
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Since we are humans. We have to blame on something when bad things happen right?
(Yeah I will only say that I am one when it is convenient or benefits me)

It must be the fengshui! LOL!

Though depressed, I think this is probably one of the few times in life you see me this optimistic.

Really I ought to learn to be more independent and learn more things.

My brain is spammed with fears, insecurities, negative thoughts & whatever it is.

Sunlight Takes Away My Already Non-Existent Happiness & Logic

I already tried hard to avoid the blasting sun yesterday & today. I came out only when it is a little cloudy. I put sunblock all over BUT FORGOT MY BACK. (-_-)

I am currently

1. Sunburnt (Considered mild to others but I am really depressed about it)
2. Having Headache Hell due to long hours outdoors & the sun
3. My Joints Hurts
4. My Muscle Hurts
5. My Back is Aching like crap
6. A few Nerves are giving me problems
   
7. My Whole Body Hurts
8. I am mentally unstable due to the sunlight
   
9. Darker by 10 tones
10. I am exhausted

My skin = fragile. I told you I hate sunlight and I cant freaking touch the damn thing. We are enemies and it is out to kill me.

Well besides being affected physically.

I feel like I am losing interest in cosplay. Something that once brought so much happiness and even make me feel like I have got to look forward in life. Missing one event would mean hell.

Yet this year I was so lazy I did not even go for one except for cosfest. I dun even feel that excited anymore.

Maybe it is because of the pain. I was in PAIN the whole event today.
Maybe it is because of the heat/sun.
Maybe it is because of the crowd.

Suddenly being in the crowd made me thought of many things.

The sunlight is really making me more depressed than normal.

Please close me up in a dark aircon room with computer and fast connection for a month and I will be alright.

Cosfest 2009 Day 1

In the Morning IT WAS RAINING.
In the Afternoon, the sun killed me & my skin. I was soaked in my own sweat.
In the Night, IT WAS RAINING AGAIN.

Blah not my luckiest day today. Since I din manage to see my fav cosplayers. (T_T)

Tiny Pictures for my Bandwidth & Lag
Click Away if you wanna see it clearer
Ask me if you want the original picture

The ULTIMATE CUTENESS
PAC MAN

Armstrong from Full Metal Alchemist!
(Omg you should seriously see this one. His character is really cool and he even made the sparkle! Rah I should have ZOOMED IN)

One of my fav unknown cosplay of the day!
I did not edit the photo at all!


One of the rarest time I actually get a FULL GROUP PIC!

Junjou Romantica
(kyaaaaaa!)

DMC

KON

Kuroshitsuji
(Becoz I am so attracted to the colour)

The Masked People

Individual Cosplay Pictures

Group Cosplay Pictures

Naruto




Gintama!


Bleach


Cardcaptor Sakura

AWWW so cute!

Jap Subculture

Siti I want Kigurumi!! =P

I am so going to wear shorts tomorrow if I go tmr like seriously.

Then bleach my skin after that stay away from the sun for months...

Since my parents say I am lack of Vitamin D which might be the cause of all my skin problems. The sunlight I am taking in these 2 days shall last me for a year then!

But then again my legs and back ache like @#$%^!!!!
I wonder if I can even crawl out of my house.